gum

When I take the boys to the grocery store I put Ayron in the baby seat on the top of the basket and Jr inside the basket. This makes it much easier for me as I don't have to chase Jr around the store. However, it has its drawbacks as well. While in the store recently Jr decided to stick his gum in his brothers hair while I wasn't looking. thankfully Ayron has enough hair that you can't tell where I had to cut it out.

Balls!!!!

Jr loves anything that involves a ball. Last fall he liked football, in the winter, basketball. Now he LOVES baseball. He carries his bat and ball everywhere we go and gets mad when I won't let him take it into the store. Here is a video of him "pitching" to Aysia. I love how he kicks his leg out like the real pitchers do...



Here is a pic of him after a good swing. Aysia took the photo so its not centered well, sorry...

Happy 9th Aysia!!!

Before the guests arrived


Kayla, Jocelyn, Brianna, Aysia, & Emily

Aysia turned 9 on the 18th!! She had a few girls over and we had a spa party. we did their nails and even gave them "facials". She had a good time! I can't believe it's been nine years! I have really enjoyed having such a sweet girl as my oldest child. She can be bossy at times, but she is such a help to me! She is thoughtful, and generous, and so sweet (at times). I just love her!!!

Week Eleven

Weight: 170!! I lost 1 lb!!!!

Food Plan: I had some chocolate this week and we went out for Mexican last night, but other than that no cheating!

Exercise: This week I have been struggling with a stomach flu so I didn't get to do two of my exercise workouts. Mon - 1/4 mile swim, Wed - 1/2 mile swim, Sat - 2mile run, 30mins bike ride!

Mother's Day

I know this is early, but here it is anyway...


My Mother

I used to love Mother's Day! I loved sending my mom flowers and writing cute notes to her. I loved our tradition of buying my mom an orchid corsage that she would wear to church. Usually there was only one purchased for all the children, but some years she wouuld have two or three because we didn't coordinate who was to buy it that year. I loved seeing my mom's eyes tear up as she watched the primary children sing I Often Go Walking, one of her favorite children's hymns. But, now I hate it. I hate going to church on Mother's Day and hearing the speakers talk about how wonderful and lovely mom's are and trying hard to hold back my tears. I get so emotional that whole day because I am missing my mom. Even Aqeel can feel the tension on that day I am sure.

I am so angry that she is gone. I hate the way life has changed because she is not in it. I hate that my half of my children never knew my mom in this life. I hate that my children will not remember her wonderful smile and laugh. I hate that they won't be able to sit and listen to her read to them. I hate that they will not be able to receive birthday, Halloween, Christmas, and Easter gifts from her anymore. I hate that I cannot call her and talk to her. I hate that I can't ask her for advice or complain about things to her anymore. I hate that there is no one else that really knows me like she did. She always knew exactly what I needed to hear and exactly how to say it. I hate that I no longer have that security and comfort that I felt from her. I hate that I can't go shopping with her anymore. I hate that I can't hear her singing off key in church anymore (she was sooo tone deaf). I am angry that the Lord chose to take her so early. I am angry that my dad isn't the parent that my mother was. I am angry that he is married to another woman. Please know that that statement does not reflect to my feeling for my step mother, just anger that she is not MY mother.

So, for me Mother's Day sucks! On a side note - I am also angry because our ward doesn't give out yummy see's chocolates, which help make Mother's day bearable! This Sunday I will be sitting in the back of the chapel fighting back tears and feelings of frustration but, do not feel bad for me. It is only one day. However, if you live near a See's candy shop and would like to help brighten my day my address is 2206 1st st., La Grande, Or 97850!!!!!

Week Ten

I don't know what is going on with my body. I am having a hard time reaching my calorie goal without going over the amount of fat I can have in a day. This is affecting my milk supply so I have had to exceed my fat intake. I don't know if this is why I haven't lost weight but I am again stuck at the same weight this week.

Weight: 171lbs.

Excersize: Mon - swan 1/2 mile, Tues - ran/waled for 15 mins and biked for 30, later that day swan over 1/4 mile, Thursday - ran/walk 15 mins and biked for 30mins, friday - biked for 40 mins.

Food Plan - I don't know what to do here. Maybe I need to see a nutritionist... No junk food, no sweets, and no fast food this week.